Hello blogger,
It's me. (=
I know it's been a while. Sorry for abandoning you for so long )= )= )= I miss you!
Being blinded by my frustration one month ago, I subconsciously decided to stop blogging, convincing myself that it was only adding to my stress. But now I am one twelfth of a year older, and much wiser.
I know we've had our ups and downs, but blogger, oh blogger, you mean a lot to meeeeeeeeeeeee.
School is tiring. so tiring. exhausting. I knew it would be difficult, but I guess I wasn't expecting it so soon.
This year is quite different from the rest. Perhaps it is because my environment is not at all new anymore, or maybe there isn't something in particular that I'm looking forward to, but I don't feel the same way I had last year, or the year before.
In 7th grade, I was excited and scared, but there was this exhilaration in feeling like a "big kid".
The night before the first day of 8th grade, I could hardly fall asleep. I remember lying there on my bed for 2 hours, not being able to surrender to unconsciousness. Again, the exhilaration.
Now it has been exactly 1 week and 13 hours since my first day of school, and I don't feel anything but tiredness. I can't say I am weary or dreading school, but if I had the choice, I would not go. I wish for summer again. If I had the choice to trade everything I have right now to go back in time and start 7th grade over, I would. Those two years of middle school were the best I ever had. I'm sure high school will be fun too. I have already laughed more than I had last month, but I feel a weight on me that I don't think will ever go away. Does this feeling come with age?
I don't know, but I do know I have to get crackin' at my Algebra 2 homework!!!
Hasta luego!
2 comments:
Don't know if you really care about what I have to say, but here goes:
9th grade IS harder, no doubt about it. I remember slacking off in 7th and 8th grade with few problems, but when 9th grade came around I actually had to start studying for tests! Chances are that you don't have that problem, but you may still feel stressed anyway. However, there is hope :). Wait a month or two and see how it feels then. I remember feeling overwhelmed early in my 9th grade year, but by October-November-ish, everything felt normal and was sort of circadian (sorry, that word sort of just popped up and I can't find a simpler replacement). So I guess what I'm saying is that it should feel less stressful over time.
And I found my 10th grade year considerably easier. From what I can tell, that's not the case with everyone else, so I don't know what's wrong with me, but I will say this: Teachers have a lot to do with your stress level. Learn to deal with the teachers and you can better deal with the stress.
And 11th grade is definitely much harder, although I still think it's overexaggerated by most people. Be glad you don't have to worry about reading tons of stuff every week and writing essays and taking tests almost every other day. You mention that you would trade everything to go back. Guess what? That's part of growing up. If keep looking back and don't appreciate what you have now, you'll always be looking in that rear-view mirror, wishing you can go back.
In case you're wondering, one reason I like commenting on your blog posts is because I learn a lot of cool things about myself while I'm coming up with a comment (especially long ones like this one). Keep them coming =)
thank you
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